I spent the last week reading about “changes”.
How to cope with your life when things change? What happens to your brain when you are going through a series of big changes in a very short span of time? Is it okay to cry multiple times a day when going through big life-changes? Is it okay to feel hopeless and down in the deepest dump when life changes?
All these and some more iterations of the same question.
To be frank, I don’t know. Reading about it didn’t help much. Talking about it isn’t helping much. Thinking about it is not helping either. So what do I do? Watch re-runs of Grey’s Anatomy, and cry with it. Empathise with those stories, and cry for the people, with the people. Guess that’s how I process things.
However, a new realisation has dawned on me the last few days.
You see, I moved houses and am now setting up my room. What I got as bare bones gets to be transformed into my new “home”. I can set it up any way I want to, decorate it as I please. Meddling with the shelves and cupboards, and fairy lights and cushions is not “too much work” now. So, connecting the dots, “changes” are chances for a do-over. I get to start afresh and do it the way I now like.
Changes in life are also similar. You get to do things over in a different way - maybe you want to experience the adrenaline and be adventurous this time, or maybe you want to learn to chill and take it easy. The choices here are aplenty, and you can live it all once again.
Time and timelines are social constructs. I have always maintained this. The story goes that someone someday long…long ago noted down the day and the time, and we have been living our lives based on that observation eons ago. We trust that person so much that we still live our lives based on ‘that’ diary entry (It couldn’t have been a diary. A wall of some cave, perhaps?). Where does this trust go when it is us? Why don’t we trust ourselves to “make it” at the end, and instead run a rat-race and stress the bejesus out of ourselves knowingly or unknowingly? I don’t know.
Life eventually pans out. Life will find a way. We just have to learn to make peace with it and let go. Letting go eases us from the burden and helps us focus on taking in the moment. This will, in turn, empower us to live the day and seize the moment. After all, that’s all we have.
Until next time,
M.